It's all I have today ("one too many mornings and a thousand miles behind") but it's so cute! I've never seen a young crane before.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Baby Crane!
It's all I have today ("one too many mornings and a thousand miles behind") but it's so cute! I've never seen a young crane before.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Three New Things That Delight Me
2. Speaking of white rock (ha!), the second delightful thing is Bruce Springsteen. I'm not going to announce that I'm delighted by ALL his music, but his album "Nebraska" is excellent. Apparently, he recorded it solo at his kitchen table, plus he plays a fine harmonica. I'm a sucker for a harmonica and a strummy guitar.
3. And the third thing that delights me: The color brown. Further explanation: Because one simply cannot wear brown shoes with a black suit, or vice-versa, years ago I decided that, when given a choice between brown and black, I would simplify my life and opt for black. Fast forward 10 years or so to my current wardrobe, in which 80% of my shoes are colored. I realized I could choose brown, so I did, and Sunday I started sewing a brown jacket.
It's a revolution a day over here, I tell you.
Monday, April 23, 2007
"In Soviet Russia, Dress Wears You!"
Here it is semi-modeled. I thought the jeans and red shoes were good at drawing attention away from all those cranes, if only to make people ask, "Why is she wearing jeans with a dress, and shoes that don't match?"
Fun with fashion!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Suddenly, I Want Some Sushi
I finally have art on the living room walls:
It's a Hasui woodblock print:
And I sewed a dress. No pictures of that because it's not ironed yet, but here's the fabric:
Do you think if, wearing my dress, I stood in front of my framed art and clicked my heels three times, I would end up in Kyoto? Maybe I'll try it.
Tired of This
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
More Literature
But until then...we have literature.
The Roethke fragment from yesterday ("the stone's eternal pulseless longing") made me think of: "Longing, we way, because desire is full of endless distances," from this by Robert Hass.
Meditation at Lagunitas
All the new thinking is about loss.And besides, what other blog do you read will tell you that "numinous" means "filled with a sense of divinity"? Literature is nothing if not educational.
In this it resembles all the old thinking.
The idea, for example, that each particular erases
the luminous clarity of a general idea. That the clown-
faced woodpecker probing the dead sculpted trunk
of that black birch is, by his presence,
some tragic falling off from a first world
of undivided light. Or the other notion that,
because there is in this world no one thing
to which the bramble of blackberry corresponds,
a word is elegy to what it signifies.
We talked about it late last night and in the voice
of my friend, there was a thin wire of grief, a tone
almost querulous. After a while I understood that,
talking this way, everything dissolves: justice,
pine, hair, woman, you and I. There was a woman
I made love to and I remembered how, holding
her small shoulders in my hands sometimes,
I felt a violent wonder at her presence
like a thirst for salt, for my childhood river
with its island willows, silly music from the pleasure boat,
muddy places where we caught the little orange-silver fish
called pumpkinseed. It hardly had to do with her.
Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances. I must have been the same to her.
But I remember so much, the way her hands dismantled bread,
the thing her father said that hurt her, what
she dreamed. There are moments when the body is as numinous
as words, days that are the good flesh continuing.
Such tenderness, those afternoons and evenings,
saying blackberry, blackberry, blackberry.
Monday, April 16, 2007
Reading, Not Speaking
I go on. The coulds have disappeared, the sun is still beyond the rim...I walk through light reflected and re-reflected from the walls and floor of the canyon, a radiant golden light that glows on rock and stream, sand and leaf in varied hues of amber, honey, whiskey--the light that never was is here, now, in the storm-sculptured gorge of the Escalante.
...Each time I look up I one of the secretive little side canyons I half expect to see not only the cottonwood tree, rising over its tiny spring--the leafy god, the deser's liquid eye--but also a rainbow-colored corona of blazing light, pure spirit, pure being, pure disembodied intelligence, about to speak my name.
The last paragraph there made me think of bits and pieces from Roethke:
"I know the back-stream's joy, and the stone's eternal pulseless longing;" or what I quoted last week:
"I live in air; the long light is my home; I dare caress the stones"
and I suddenly realized I like Roethke so much because so much of his work reminds me of the desert.
Friday, April 13, 2007
I'm Buying Her A Toaster
So Amber, consider this my toast, because I may be too tipsy to make a real one tomorrow.
First, I am so glad you are marrying a man who understands how important it is to always have bacon in the house. You deserve nothing less.
Second, let me thank you for nearly twenty years of friendship, in which you didn't make fun of my hair, even when it was bad; helped me realize I wanted to be a writer; made a sock monkey with me; shopped with me; got me freelance jobs; wrote me letters and letters when I was away at music camp; introduced me to the band Cake; got me a real writing job; got me a FABULOUS real writing job; and so much more. You're smart, a smart ass, fiercely loyal and loving, and never, never sentimental.
So if I cry tomorrow, laugh at me. I would expect nothing less.
Best wishes for a lifetime of bacon and happiness!
Thursday, April 12, 2007
"The Grandeur Of A Crazy One Alone"
The point is that, much to my own surprise, I enjoy living alone. And I have some Roethke to quote about it! (From "Her Becoming," in Words to the Wind, 1958.)
Ask all the mice who caper in the straw -
I am benign in my own company.
A shape without a shade, or almost none,
I hum in pure vibration, like a saw.
The grandeur of a crazy one alone! -
By swoops of bird, by leaps of fish I live.
My shadow steadies in a shifting stream;
I live in air; the long light is my home;
I dare caress the stones, the field my friend;
A light wind rises: I become the wind.
This has probably only confirmed my craziness to the anonymous relative (Alan!), but "I am benign in my own company" captures pretty exactly how I feel.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
What Not To Think Of While Eating Salmon:
I caught a tremendous fishJust a regular Tuesday night at Chez Let's Doubt Our Food Choices and Then Read Poems to the Houseplants.
and held him beside the boat
half out of water, with my hook
fast in a corner of his mouth.
He didn't fight.
He hadn't fought at all.
He hung a grunting weight,
battered and venerable
and homely. Here and there
his brown skin hung in strips
like ancient wallpaper,
and its pattern of darker brown
was like wallpaper:
shapes like full-blown roses
stained and lost through age.
He was speckled with barnacles,
fine rosettes of lime,
and infested
with tiny white sea-lice,
and underneath two or three
rags of green weed hung down.
While his gills were breathing in
the terrible oxygen
--the frightening gills,
fresh and crisp with blood,
that can cut so badly--
I thought of the coarse white flesh
packed in like feathers,
the big bones and the little bones,
the dramatic reds and blacks
of his shiny entrails,
and the pink swim-bladder
like a big peony.
I looked into his eyes
which were far larger than mine
but shallower, and yellowed,
the irises backed and packed
with tarnished tinfoil
seen through the lenses
of old scratched isinglass.
They shifted a little, but not
to return my stare.
--It was more like the tipping
of an object toward the light.
I admired his sullen face,
the mechanism of his jaw,
and then I saw
that from his lower lip
--if you could call it a lip
grim, wet, and weaponlike,
hung five old pieces of fish-line,
or four and a wire leader
with the swivel still attached,
with all their five big hooks
grown firmly in his mouth.
A green line, frayed at the end
where he broke it, two heavier lines,
and a fine black thread
still crimped from the strain and snap
when it broke and he got away.
Like medals with their ribbons
frayed and wavering,
a five-haired beard of wisdom
trailing from his aching jaw.
I stared and stared
and victory filled up
the little rented boat,
from the pool of bilge
where oil had spread a rainbow
around the rusted engine
to the bailer rusted orange,
the sun-cracked thwarts,
the oarlocks on their strings,
the gunnels--until everything
was rainbow, rainbow, rainbow!
And I let the fish go.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Just Don't Call It "Little House On The Prairie"
Because would Laura, as much as I love her (all seven books are on my shelf right now), ever make something like this?
Anyway, it's a Nehru-ish tunic made with Japanese indigo dyed cotton:
And we have some pickstitch detailing--done by hand:
And, Party Dude, I know for a fact Laura Ingalls would not be drinking sherry by a bunch of grape hyacinths while she did her hand finishing.
So call my hobbies what you will (resourceful, frivoulous, sublimation). Just don't call them Little House on the Prairie. Especially when you mean the TV show.
Monday, April 09, 2007
Remember This?
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Random Friday Post
Wednesday's list got me on a Bob Dylan kick, and I had to think of the opening of "Just Like Tom Thumbs Blues":
When you're lost in the rain in Juarez
And it's Eastertime too
And your gravity fails
And negativity don't pull you through
Don't put on any airs
When you're down on Rue Morgue Avenue
They got some hungry women there
And they really make a mess outa you
Now, what does this mean? I never can tell (I think you might have to be stoned) but I like it. And did you know you can look up lyrics to all his songs on bobdylan.com? Hours of fun.
Here's a website called the Daily Bunny. Guess what you'll find there! Just guess!
And finally, I watched Easter Parade last night, which once again confirmed my desire to marry Fred Astaire. Also: Irving Berlin would be a good band name.
Imagine My Surprise
They were running to the beds I hadn't weeded yet (maybe that's a good excuse not to weed?) and I thought they were running from me, until I looked up and saw a hawk.
I live across the street from a busy hospital that gets a lot of traffic, both vehicular and helicopter-ular. But there was Nature! In my front yard! I can't wait until a family of raccoons moves in.
This is not the quail I saw this morning, but it does illustrate the little feather thing on top of their heads.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Bob Dylan Lyrics or Japanese Translations?
B O B D Y L A N T U N E S
O R P O O R L Y T R A N S L A T E D
E N G L I S H O N
J A P A N E S E F O O D P A C K A G I N G .
BY KIM McCANN
- - - -
1. It's burned to a crisp with all our heart!
2. I see you've got your brand-new leopard skin pillbox hat!
3. Anytime, anywhere, just like your friend.
4. We're going all the way until the wheels fall off and burn.
5. You might like to drink wiskey! Might like to drink milk! You might like to eat caviar!
6. The sentimental taste is cozy for the heroines in the town.
7. My mind was relaxed by attaching importance to the tradition.
8. You've got all the love, honeybaby, I can stand!
9. Teeth like pearls, shining like the moon above.
10. Relieve the relief and listen to the angel's whisper.
11. There is a house in New Orleans they call the rising sun.
12. If dishes are nice, the square ceiling becomes round.
KEY:
1. Batard bread
2. from "Leopard Skin Pillbox Hat"
3. No-Brand Orange Punch
4. from "Brownsville Girl"
5. from "Gotta Serve Somebody"
6. Koedastick chocolate candy
7. Izumiya Confectionary Company
8. from "Buckets of Rain"
9. from "Brownsville Girl"
10. Angel Relief chocolate and bisquit cookies
11. from "House of the Rising Sun"
12. a fondue pot box
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
5 Reasons I Love Orson Welles
1. Citizen Kane (I had never seen it before last night! Imagine where this post is going!)
2. He allegedly dated Billie Holiday
3. The War of the Worlds
4. He was the voice of the Shadow (I had no idea!)
5. Don’t laugh at me, but he was mighty handsome
(Think young Brando. Not old Brando. You can never think of the old version of hot genius actors.) (Peter O’Toole is an exception to that rule.)
And a bonus reason:
6. He wanted to make Heart Of Darkness as his first movie
I knew a little about William Randolph Hearst, thanks to my old roommate’s tutelage and love of San Simeon (he visited it as a boy, and credits it for wanting to be a sculptor). And of course I had read The Fountainhead, whose Gail Wyand character is also based on Hearst. But Citizen Kane and the Citizen Kane documentary last night made me feel like I did when I was maybe eight and had just figured out the allegory in The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe and wanted to make sure everyone knew about it. (I remember telling my mom that, and her saying—so seriously, which is one of the many reasons she is such an excellent mother—“I think people already know.”)
In other words, I'm sure people already know much more than I know about the connections between Citizen Kane, The Fouintainhead, and William Hearst. But I want to find out more about Hearst, and about when exactly Rand was writing The Fountainhead (it was published in 1943) and if she saw Citizen Kane first (premiered in 1941) and yeah. Learning! Books! Cinema! And did I mention I was knitting on a new grey alpaca sweater during all of this?
Monday, April 02, 2007
A Good Weekend
First, I trimmed some pillowcases for my bed:
And then I sewed a top to wear, part 1 of The Great DIY Spring Wardrobe Makeover of 2007:
I bought both fabrics in Hawaii. I saw them and I said, "Well, hello, big orange Asian-inspired fabrics!"
Friday, March 30, 2007
My Apartment Is Conveniently Close To LDS Hospital
"A man goes far to find out what he is--
Death of the self in a long, tearless night,
All natural shapes blazing unnatural light."
Anyway, here it is: "In A Dark Time," by Theodore Roethke, who might be elevated to imaginary boyfriend status because I love his poems so much.
In a dark time, the eye begins to see,
I meet my shadow in the deepening shade;
I hear my echo in the echoing wood--
A lord of nature weeping to a tree,
I live between the heron and the wren,
Beasts of the hill and serpents of the den.
What's madness but nobility of soul
At odds with circumstance? The day's on fire!
I know the purity of pure despair,
My shadow pinned against a sweating wall,
That place among the rocks--is it a cave,
Or winding path? The edge is what I have.
A steady storm of correspondences!
A night flowing with birds, a ragged moon,
And in broad day the midnight come again!
A man goes far to find out what he is--
Death of the self in a long, tearless night,
All natural shapes blazing unnatural light.
My soul, like some heat-maddened summer fly,
Keeps buzzing at the sill. Which I is I?
A fallen man, I climb out of my fear.
The mind enters itself, and God the mind,
And one is One, free in the tearing wind.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
The Apartment, Part 2: The Kitchen
This is what you would see if you were walking in the front door or sitting at the counter on the second barstool that I keep planning on buying.
This is looking into the corner where the sink is. That's why you can see a sink. And the houseplant again.
And here's the rest of that wall, including the door to the bathroom. As my brother said when he saw it, "You can almost shower in your kitchen!"
Monday, March 26, 2007
The Apartment, Part 1: I Found My Camera
I have a chair!
(This is actually the same Eames-like chair I read all my books in as a child, and that I got rocked in as a baby even earlier.)
I have SHELVES, which on the apartment furniture black market would be equivalent to having about twenty kilos of cocaine. Because these are CUSTOM BUILT. By my dad, who is a MASTER CRAFTSMAN. (Also retired! And available to hire for YOUR shelf-building needs! Email me!)
This is where the internet is. So fast! And what's that? Another chair! (That's the knitting basket to the left.)
And...best of all....I have A FULL-SIZE OVEN.
AND I HAVE THIS CLOSET. This closet has its own light. I think I have to lie down now.
"Apparent Passions of My Upstairs Neighbors"
Moving furniture
Rolling bowling balls off of tables
Keeping time to music by beating a staff
Picking up anvils, and then dropping them
Riverdance
My camera has disappeared into the depths of my new closet, so the plan of posting pictures of the weekend's progress on the apartment (bookshelves!)is not going to happen today. I know the camera's in the apartment because I took a picture of the shower curtain two weeks ago; I just don't know where I put it. I thought this list was evocative of apartment life, though--I'm just glad they get up when I do and not earlier.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Thursday Night At Chez Solo
I came home and checked my email because now I have the internet in my own house. (There was nothing new since I checked it at work, oh, 30 minutes previously. But you never know!)
I ate Thai food for dinner.
I knitted a pattern repeat on the Fabulous New Spring But It May Actually Be Summer Before I Finish It Handbag while watching an episode from the first season of Northern Exposure.
I became irritated with Rob Morrow and decided to read in the hope of becoming sleepy.
I did not become sleepy.
I finished the book I had picked to read (Fugitive Pieces, one of the top ten books ever in my opinion, and yes Dad, I have your copy, but you don't re-read things anyway)
I decided to read my old journals instead.
Then my head exploded.
And tomorrow? If I still can't sleep, I might read poems to the houseplants.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
The Vernal Equinox Means Spring, And Spring Means...
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Back, Kind Of
BUT I had my parents to take care of me (yes, I lived alone for a WHOLE WEEK, thank you very much) so now I'm better. (Thanks, parents!) And tomorrow I will have the internet in my own home. So get ready for apartment pictures.
And in other news, it's the Vernal Equinox. You can learn all about the science part of it here or you can dismiss science and learn about the Druid/Christian part here.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Hours - Nay, Days - Of Fun
My favorites:
Words Never Used in the Titles of Remotely Good Films
Band Names Rejected by the Smashing Pumpkins
Prescription Drug or Metal Band?
HAL's Comments While Trapped on a Desert Island, and Your Name Is Dave
Other Places Jimmy Buffett Wasted Away
and, finally
Original Title Suggestions by J.D. Salinger's Publisher That Could Have Been Deleterious to the Success of His Magnum Opus
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
It's This, or a Vacation
Today's "Word" That People Must Stop Using is "thrift." Not when used as a decent and proper noun, but when used as a verb. It appears on all the pretentious craft blogs I've found, where stay-at-home moms make stuffed animals that they sell on Etsy, and have one or two young-ish children that they dress in vintage smocks, and on days when the kids are at art camp or something they get lattes and go "thrifting."
This is not an acceptable usage of an established word. Nor is it acceptable to describe something you purchased while shopping at a thrift store as "thrifted." It just isn't. It's juvenile and affected. Please, craft bloggers, stop this immediately.
(Don't get me started on people who use "impactful." At least the craft bloggers don't do that.)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Hey, An Anniversary
Also, is it warm enough to wear a muumuu yet?
Monday, March 12, 2007
Moved!
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Part IV: Muumuus
When you wear a muumuu in Hawaii, you feel like putting a plumeria behind your ear. That's what I did with this one:
In fact, I loved my muumuu experience so much we found a Hawaiian fabric store and I bought both a pattern for another muumuu:
and the fabric:
Apparently, other people (well, coworkers) think it's strange to go to a fabric store on vacation. But what better souvenir to get? Because this summer I can put on one of my muumuus, sit on my porch, and remember this:
Part III: The Nene
Because it has the best name ever, the nene captured my heart on this vacation. Sadly, I didn't see one, but the signs about them were awesome. My favorite: A nene silhouette with the words "GO SLOW" beneath it. My second favorite: A sign proclaiming "A fed nene is a dead nene!" (I'm still mad I didn't get pictures.) I guess I'll just have to go back.
This is not a nene:
It's a rooster living in the parking lot of:
And what does Akaka Falls look like? Big and damp:
And remember--A FED NENE IS A DEAD NENE. Don't feed the nene.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Part II: Lava
So picture an approach to the shore in Volcano National Park, around sunset. Um, is that shoreline smoking?
Oh, I think it is. Don't breathe in the smoke!
In spite of MANY warnings from the Federal Government...
...we want to get closer to the lava. Where is the lava?
We do not view the 4-minute lava safety video.
On our way to get closer to the lava, we pass some old lava that had happened to just, you know, FLOW ACROSS THE ROAD. In 2005. I am amazed and point at it:
The adventure continued as we hiked across some old lava (avoiding the steam plume) and hunkered down with the lava rats (no, really) and let it get completely dark. Of course, my camera couldn't focus in the dark, so you'll have to imagine the best part: seeing the lava flowing down the hillside and entering the ocean. We were a mile away, more or less safely, and it was just incredible to think that new land was being formed right before our eyes. Because who else gets to see new land being formed? Pretty much only God.
Lava. I like it as much as I like the ocean.
Monday, March 05, 2007
Part I: The Ocean
However, while I like being by the ocean, I learned I am afraid of being in the ocean. It's big. There are waves. And if you're not a strong swimmer, the ocean can kill you:
And things live in the ocean! Sometimes really big things, because the ocean is big! Things like whales:
And sea turtles:
And twenty-year-olds from the Coast Guard! (Hello, boys!)
Yes, I like the ocean.